7ove

"The word love is so cliché. People in a relationship says I love you to one another. Why? Because they feel is the right moment to say and express it. I believe more of action than words.

I love you.

You love me.

You see, the word 'love' is overrated and had been misused for countless of times from the past to the present. This may be the reason of break ups and broken marriages but let's not go to there.

You see, I don't love you, and I don't want you to say you love me too. Its just words. It doesn't justify anything.

I just want both of us to just pay attention to the simple things in life that revolves around us and our relationship.

I want you to just understand why I just liked being quiet at night, let it be if I hug you while watching a movie, listening to music or just stare into the night sky. I am like that, its how I wind down a day of me, not being me.

I want you to understand I have trust issues with people I had dated. Even if you are a friend of mine before we got to become more than friends, I still can't trust people much with my personal details in life and my secrets of my past.

I want you to know that when you fill those intimate spaces between my fingers when holding my hand means a lot to me. It gives a bond that both of us shared.

I want you to know that when you hug me, the warmth radiates from your body actually gives a calming effect. Especially to people like me, who worries far too much and far too often. Its like alcohol, a temporary solution to a painful question.

I want you to know, each kiss you had given me and that I have given you, whether just a small peck or a really passionate one, they give me butterflies everytime, and they somehow reminds me of the promises you had given to me or that I had gave you. Simple, but important promises.

The spoken words and silent gestures that we had shared are like our secrets, our validity of what we are going through. The words we speak, the silence we listen. Communication.

You see, I don't say I love you is because of the reasons above. But you had understand it in the wrong way. I don't force you to say I love you, but I just wanted to feel it. I guess that won't be happening.

The attraction, interaction, commitment, personal time and space were shared. I guess you felt it wasn't enough. So let the heartbreak and hope began. Hence the title. Seven.

Bye."