Same

I've lost the boy who gave me the key to the most important door to him, I have hurt the boy who spent so much of his time for me, I have lost the boy who gave me his heart to me, I have lost the handsome man the boy had grown into with my heart.

Bullshit

Its painful to know that last Easter, I gave up all my blessings to you, all my prayers to you. I regret doing so. Why? Because you are never close to me to deserve them. Its all bull.

From facebook

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends here in facebook to answer this. Then see what happens. If you're a guy- post this as my kind of girl..If you're a girl- post it as my kind of boy.. 

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?  
Good looking enough to me

2. Smart?
At least have some brains lah
 
3. Preferred age? 
Either the same age as I am, or older (max 3 years older?)

4. Preferred height? 
Not shorter than me I am fine already

5. How about sense of humor? 
MUST HAVE LAH

6. How about piercings? 
Hmm....maybe on the ear and thats final?

7. Accepts you for who you are?  
Definately

8. Pink hair? 
NO

9. Mushy or no? 
I can live with mushi-ness :)

10. Thin or fat? 
Average

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)? 
I am not racist

12. Long hair or short hair? 
Not long until must tie lah

13. Plastic or metal? 
What the...?

14. Smells good? 
:)

15. Smoker? 
HELL NO

16. Drinker?
I am okay with guys drinking, but no alcoholics please

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type? 
Okay :)

18. Musically inclined? 
YES

19. Plays piano? 
Would want lah

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?  
Are sexy :)

21. Plays violin? 
Can also

22. Sings very good? 
YES!

23. Vain? 
Not toooooooo much

24. With glasses? 
Anything

25. With braces? 
Anything (just please remove them soon after)

26. Shy type? 
Maybe a tinge?

27. Rebel or good boy/girl? 
A little rebellious is okay ;)

28. Active or passive? 
Active-passive

29. Tight or bomb? 
The hell is this?

30. Singer or dancer?  
Singer?

31. Stunner? 
???

32. Hiphop? 
Doesn't matter

33. Earrings?
Refer to the question regarding about piercings
 
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop? 
Noooooo

35. Dimples? 
Guys with dimples are cute :)

36. Bookworm?
HECK YEAH

37. Mr/Ms. love letter? 
Which girl doesn't want romance!

38. Playful? 
:)

39. Flirt? 
Only to me and FOR me

40. Poem writer?  
Okay!
41. Serious? 
In a relationship? Of course lah

42. Campus crush? 
Well, I do have one right now

43. Painter? 
Have never dated a guy who could, would like so I guess?

44. Religious? 
My religion, and religious!

45. Someone who likes to tease people? 
To tease me? Got used to liking it. :)

46. Computer games geek?
Not too much

47. Speaks 20 languages? 
Waooooohhh. Pro?

48. Loyal or faithful? 
Both

49. Good kisser? 
Hmmm, guess so?

50. Loves children? 
Yes! I adore kids!

Bunnyhead

Seeing other couples being how couples do, doesn't sadden me anymore. I admit that it would, especially much if what the couples do were so similar to how it was in my past relationships.

But, I just hate that feeling that I used to be like that. That is the most hateful part after getting over.

I missed being called bunnyhead. Nuff' said.

Facebook

Did this for a giveaway competition. I did not win. But I wrote this from my heart. Shits. I am sad.

Messed.

I guess not talking to you,
Is a norm for me.
But,
I am not used to not having you,
Like every single second in my life.
I really miss you.
I guess the reason you are still on my mind,
Is because,
You were the last to say you love me.
You were the last to kiss me.
You were the last to hold my hand.
You were the last to make sure I am okay.
I don't know whether I still love you,
Or not.

Thank You Valentine

Valentine's day came and went,
And still you were the one who spent time with me,
Even though you are not mine anymore,
And I am not yours,
But two lonely souls.

Out of the 7 years since I our first V-day,
You were my Valentine for 5 years,
As my boyfriend,
My bestie,
My all,
My friend.

I still love you,
Maybe not the way I used to,
But deep down,
I knew you are still there for me,
As always.

[Thank you Alexander Jude Lim Ming Eng for spending with me another V-day again. I knew I was pretty much a trouble again to you. Thank you Alexandra for 'baby-sitting' the both of us again like we used to all those years ago! And to decide to spend time with me and not your guy. *ohmygosh, I have just made you sound so old!* Hope the presents I gave you both of alright, cause what you both had given me brought back sweet memories of the two of you. Love ya. ;) ]